Enlightening up. At least that’s what I’m aiming for when I roll out my yoga mat. Striving for some kind of clear thought that might arrive during the asana practice or afterwards once I’ve settled my pacing mind. But more often than not, when I’m cursing the murdering shoulder ache in down dog, I don’t feel like I’m getting any closer. But after seeing Kate Churchill’s documentary, aptly titled “Enlighten Up,” I think I have some renewed clarity as to why I keep showing up barefoot and questioning.

In the doc, Churchill takes Nick Rosen, a New York journalist without any spiritual bones in his body, on a skeptical journey into the world of yoga, seeking proof of transformation. We meet a fair share of celebrity yogis, true believers, kooks, and entrepreneurs and the more Rosen investigates yoga the more contradictions he discovers. His yoga uncertainty is well-founded and one that I could appreciate, having questioned it at times myself . . . But while Rosen tries to twist and conform to various yoga styles, he manages to find his own brand of inspiration and transformation even though it takes a different route. The beauty of it is that there is no one method to meeting that change. It can find you in a yoga posture or rock climbing—the physical act is often the vehicle to reaching that greater whatever-it-is you’re searching for. All it needs is space to reveal itself.
I know I probably already lost a whole lot of you with this yoga philosophizing and existential blah blah, but let me just bring this back around. Ultimately, I think I show up on the mat because I’m searching for a greater sense of self and I’m hoping to find it once the noise in my head settles. One of the great moments in the film is when a lovely chubby-cheeked guru tells Rosen that the path to finding yourself is to find what you are not—and then keep peeling away to your core. They say true happiness is within and you have to keep shedding those layers to get there. I love that imagery. . .
If you're curious,
ENLIGHTEN UP is still playing at the Rubin Museum of Art. Check out their
CALENDAR for additional information.